Dear Nolan,

Happy Birthday Lil Guy!

I can't believe you would be 1 years old today, it's amazing how fast time really did fly. Just one year ago at this very time is when we found out you were going to make an appearance into this world. Let me tell you how unexpected and taken by surprise your Daddy and I were. We didn't even have a name for you yet. Everything happened so fast that morning.

But one thing stuck out in my mind that Dr F said, you may be little but you were developed as a 26 week baby so you had some fight to you. And that you did! And right before they started the c-section, you kicked me so hard and I think it was you telling me everything would be okay, especially since you haven't been active for a few days. You came out kicking and with a squeal. You had APGARS of 8/8 and even impressed Mommy's Dr's.

I can't thank you enough for fighting as hard as you did and giving us time to

meet you. I would do ANYTHING to go back to the 2.5 days you spent kicking in that isolette and sit right beside you for every single moment. You had your Daddy's body but my personality, all 13 ounces of you. You amazed every single person that got to come meet you, you brought tears and laughter at the same time.

I miss you SO much Nolan and would do anything, in this world to be able to spend the day with you Nolan. ANYTHING. But I think that is obvious.

I'm not sure what your birthday will be like up there in Heaven but I bet it will be amazing, you have so many angel friends to celebrate with you and I know Grandma made you the best cake and is going to let you have as many pieces as you want. Just like she did with us kids.

A year ago right now, we had no clue if you would make it in this world, but I am so THANKFUL for the fight you gave us. We gave you life and in the end, THAT'S all that matters.

Happy Birthday Nolan, we love you to the moon and stars and I wish so badly I could watch you smash a big old red and blue cake today.

I love you!

Love,

Your Mommy