3 weeks?

So we went to the fetal specialist today. To the same office I was hoping we would never step foot back in but they made sure I saw a different Dr and I am so glad we saw this one. We did the ultrasound and we were hoping my amniotic fluid went up after the fluids they gave me yesterday in L&D and the fluids I drank last night...but it remained 3.7 So I was expecting bad news when the Dr came in. The tech tried so hard to get some extra fluid by his face so she could get me a 4D picture of his face, but there just isn't enough fluid.

The Dr came in and said the good news is he is still growing, slowly but he is. He said that everything still looks good with the head and legs and stomach growing. He said in a disease state those are the first to lag behind. He believes his size has to do with my placenta. He thinks my placenta isn't providing the baby with what he needs. I guess some evidence of this is I'm starting to get reversal flow in the umbilical cord. This is major. He needs to have me come in twice a week so monitor the flow because as soon as it's completely reversed we have to deliver. This why he thinks my amniotic fluid can't be fixed by drinking more fluids, damn. He also said even though the chromosomes looked good on one test doesn't mean that the placenta got some bad chromosomes. He said the baby COULD have an unknown syndrome but we wouldn't know that until later, and that is something that could be causing all of this.

He mentioned he hopes that I can make it another 5-10 days to get him to a closer viable weight. He said if he was born today, his survival rate is 5-10%, but if he DOES have a heart defect (which we find out tomorrow) it goes to pretty much nothing because he wouldn't be able to fight the surgeries.

So our plan is cardiologist tomorrow, back to fetal every Monday & Thursday. They are also now testing me for Preeclampsia, my blood pressures have been higher lately but I really think it has to do with stress, so they are just making sure. He thinks he might have me hospital bedrest by nest week.

He went ahead and have me the steroid shot to help mature his lungs because he really does think he is making an apperance in the next 2-3 weeks if he makes it that long.

This sucks, I can' even explain the emotions we go through. I know God does everything for a reason but it is so frusterating. I don't wish this on anybody or even a worst enemy. We want NOTHING more than to have this baby boy and hope he's a fighter and proves all these Dr's wrong.