Flowers

I'm stuck.
Trying to decide on the perfect flowers for Nolan for the season and I can't think of any. I am sure your thinking any flower arrangement will work, so why are you stressing over it. Right?

I don't blame you, I think it's my way of being his Mom. I guess you can compare it to finding the perfect nursery or the best Halloween costume or maybe even that perfect outfit for a certain occasion. But I am left to flowers- flowers to put at my baby's grave. So yes, in my mind- I want them perfect and meaningful. He only deserves flowers made from our hearts. So what would be good?...

It looks like I will be craft store hopping today to collect all the perfect things for this months flowers. I'm thinking a white winter theme since it seems to be snowing everywhere but Florida. I think Nolan would like those.

I can't believe I am writing a post about putting flowers at my baby's grave, still just seems so surreal to me. As I said, just one of those 'holy cow this is my life' moments.

On the other hand, the lady at McDonalds last night asked if I had any children. I just smiled and nodded and thought...
"Yes, yes I do"
It was just one of those moments and I felt like a Mom, I love those moments. So simple, but so meaningful.