“The best way to spread Christmas Cheer, is singing loud for all to hear.”
-Buddy the Elf
That’s how I felt this year. I wanted to sing Christmas music at the top of my lungs, decorate every inch of my house in lights and garland and loath in Christmas goodness because this year, I am just so damn happy. So thankful and completely over the moon for the best little Christmas gift yet this year, CC. It’s amazing how so much can change in one year. Last year I wanted nothing to do with the holiday season, I went to church to celebrate Jesus, but that was it. No tree, no decorations, no music..no nothing. And I was kind of ready to do the same given the type of year we have had, but that 5lb 7oz baby boy changed that all, he brought back hope into our life and gave us one HUGE reason to celebrate this year. God I love him so unconditionally.
I am just so thankful he’s here, he’s healthy and we got to end 2010 with something to smile about. There is no question about it, Christmas was the closest thing to perfection this year. I always hope the holidays are gentle on those who are missing loved ones and this year there is no question that my family needed that. Although, our little Christopher brought us so much needed cheer this year. We needed this little guy, he has brought smiles to our faces and happiness to the infinite power. I can’t even begin to tell you how complete I feel right now.
We spent Christmas Day at my parents this year, we had a low key Christmas given it was my Mom & Dad’s first without my brother and my Grandpa. We didn’t have a tree decorated there or lots of presents. We pretty much spent the day passing the baby around and taking pictures, laughing at his ridiculous expressions and marveling at our little miracle. Sometimes simple is better and this year it was needed for my family. We really just spent the holiday celebrating the true meaning and it felt so good to be together as a family, no present can top that.
And at the end of the night, it felt so good to be able to put CC in his PJ’s, pack up the car, load the baby in and wave goodbye as a family. THIS is what I have been dying to experience the past 18 months, I have craved this feeling and it feels amazing to feel as close to complete as we can while we still miss Nolan.