Kinda feel like my life is changing, priorities have shifted and I'm worried about friendships drifting. I'm happy it's changing in one aspect, been waiting for THAT change for a long time. But with that change, it seems like life gets in the way of current relationships and for some reason I am really bumming about it. I try to tell myself that it's just temporary but it's really not.
2 days after coming home from the hospital with CC, I learned that my position at work had to be filled since I had been on leave so long and needed to fill the needs of the business. I think this is where a lot of my feelings come from. Now, when returning from maternity leave I am starting at a new hospital, with new co-workers, new experiences, new things to learn. Over all just a new start, I consider it a blessing in a sense. BUT, I am really really going to miss the kind of work I did, the people I worked with and Drs I worked under, AND all my friends I worked with. I was looking forward to returning to my hospital and having the welcome back most get coming off maternity leave.
But the thing is, since that happened, I stopped hearing from friends.
I'm going with the mindset that after the past 2 years, and with our new arrival.... It's just time for a fresh start. New friends, new lifestyle, hopefully new home soon and new opportunities at work. I just have to accept the change... Most things all happen for a reason.
I'm just sick of trying to justify why changes happen, I'm always trying to find the good in the situation, when sometimes I just want to scream..."it's not fair" or what the heck did I do to deserve this?
Although, I have CC and that's all that really matters. And because of him and a new position, a whole group of new friends have come into my life and I am so excited about these new connections.
And now that I have that off my chest, I can go back go my normal blogging and post more of this handsome little man.