Holy cow! I am 29 weeks tomorrow! That means 8 weeks to go until my C-section. I guess it’s safe to say we need to get this nursery underway! We knew from the beginning that we would not repaint Nolan’s room and if we get our new house (crossing fingers), the room will be painted the same. The question was if we we’re going to keep the nursery the nautical nursery we had planned for Nolan or if we would change it.
If we didn’t change it, all we needed was a crib, dresser and new bedding, since I gave Nolan’s anchor bedding to baby Kooper. But in my heart, that was Nolan’s room, always will be. This baby is different, this baby is a different pregnancy and deserves his own style. But nothing seemed to fit like it did with Nolan. Nolan was a cruise ship baby, that’s where my nautical inspiration came from. Then when I started fight for his life, that very same anchor took a different meaning, HOPE. We never finished the nursery before it turned into a memory room. We never had the furniture ordered, just painted walls and a few decorations. I never thought that when we finally framed the official nautical chart from our wedding, signed by the captain himself that we would be hanging a “in memory” plaque under it. It just doesn’t seem right.
So we wanted this baby to have his own theme, his own identity.
This pregnancy is about me trying to stay positive and saying “I think I can, I think I can” make it to 37 weeks. I know I can do it, even if it seems far fetched. So this little boy’s room will be all about TRAINS! It just seems fitting, especially when my Mom reminded me how much my brother Charlie LOOOOOVED trains. It just seemed as if the puzzle fit. CC has his Uncle Charlie up there routing for him to have one awesome name and a pretty sweet nursery as he holds his big brother up there and takes care of him. I know Charlie is looking down on me and refusing to let us lose another baby. He only has the attention span to take care of one up there. Morbid, maybe.. but it’s how I think of things to make me feel better.
Then the kicker was, the other night I finished Mary Beth Chapman’s book, Choosing Too See, about losing her 5 year old daughter in a tragic accident. It’s about her grief journey and choosing to see God through it. Well my breath was taken away reading this last line at the ending of the book.
Well now that 29 weeks is approaching and 37 is not too far away, I think it’s time we hustle down and start this vision I have had. Because I have to keep telling myself, I think I can, I think I can.. and I WILL bring this baby home, even on days when I am convinced this is all too good to be true.
So Baby CC’s room will go a little bit like this…
We are keeping the walls the same. I am in LOVE with the paint job, it’s a small part of Nolan’s memory room that will keep it’s charm. Plus it already matches what we want to do. I want to keep it simple.
I feel in LOVE with a crib, so I guess it’s time to order that. I think I finally feel ready
The bedding is from Pottery Barn Kids & is very simple, plain and no theme, and HOW ironic that the picture from the website is a TRAIN nursery. The picture resembles a lot of what the nursery will look like when it’s put together. Blue, simple and a few trains.
I want to add a few pictures of trains..
I want a peaceful room that doesn’t feel like we erased Nolan, but I want a nursery that is something meaningful to us like it was when we did Nolan’s. But I also want a room that we FINISH putting together to call a nursery when we are done. I want to see the crib and glider all set up. I just want to being a baby home to it. I think I am ready to make this all happen, because in 8 short weeks, Baby CC will be coming home!