Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Nursery Time

Holy cow! I am 29 weeks tomorrow! That means 8 weeks to go until my C-section. I guess it’s safe to say we need to get this nursery underway! We knew from the beginning that we would not repaint Nolan’s room and if we get our new house (crossing fingers), the room will be painted the same. The question was if we we’re going to keep the nursery the nautical nursery we had planned for Nolan or if we would change it.

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If we didn’t change it, all we needed was a crib, dresser and new bedding, since I gave Nolan’s anchor bedding to baby Kooper. But in my heart, that was Nolan’s room, always will be. This baby is different, this baby is a different pregnancy and deserves his own style. But nothing seemed to fit like it did with Nolan. Nolan was a cruise ship baby, that’s where my nautical inspiration came from. Then when I started fight for his life, that very same anchor took a different meaning, HOPE. We never finished the nursery before it turned into a memory room. We never had the furniture ordered, just painted walls and a few decorations. I never thought that when we finally framed the official nautical chart from our wedding, signed by the captain himself that we would be hanging a “in memory” plaque under it. It just doesn’t seem right.

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So we wanted this baby to have his own theme, his own identity.

This pregnancy is about me trying to stay positive and saying “I think I can, I think I can” make it to 37 weeks. I know I can do it, even if it seems far fetched. So this little boy’s room will be all about TRAINS! It just seems fitting, especially when my Mom reminded me how much my brother Charlie LOOOOOVED trains. It just seemed as if the puzzle fit. CC has his Uncle Charlie up there routing for him to have one awesome name and a pretty sweet nursery as he holds his big brother up there and takes care of him. I know Charlie is looking down on me and refusing to let us lose another baby. He only has the attention span to take care of one up there. Morbid, maybe.. but it’s how I think of things to make me feel better.

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Then the kicker was, the other night I finished Mary Beth Chapman’s book, Choosing Too See, about losing her 5 year old daughter in a tragic accident. It’s about her grief journey and choosing to see God through it. Well my breath was taken away reading this last line at the ending of the book.

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Well now that 29 weeks is approaching and 37 is not too far away, I think it’s time we hustle down and start this vision I have had. Because I have to keep telling myself, I think I can, I think I can.. and I WILL bring this baby home, even on days when I am convinced this is all too good to be true.

So Baby CC’s room will go a little bit like this…

We are keeping the walls the same. I am in LOVE with the paint job, it’s a small part of Nolan’s memory room that will keep it’s charm. Plus it already matches what we want to do. I want to keep it simple.

I feel in LOVE with a crib, so I guess it’s time to order that. I think I finally feel ready

crib2 We need to go pick up the dresser we found and it’s going to look amazing with the crib.

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The bedding is from Pottery Barn Kids & is very simple, plain and no theme, and HOW ironic that the picture from the website is a TRAIN nursery. The picture resembles a lot of what the nursery will look like when it’s put together. Blue, simple and a few trains.bedding2bedding1 

I want to add a few pictures of trains..

train …and a blown up canvas print of the “Little Engine that Could” because that’s what this story is about.

the-little-engine-that-could I want a peaceful room that doesn’t feel like we erased Nolan, but I want a nursery that is something meaningful to us like it was when we did Nolan’s. But I also want a room that we FINISH putting together to call a nursery when we are done. I want to see the crib and glider all set up. I just want to being a baby home to it. I think I am ready to make this all happen, because in 8 short weeks, Baby CC will be coming home!

19 comments:

Britt said...

Great idea! Trains for alittle boy are always super cute and definitely meaningful. I'm a fairly new reader and I love hearing about your strength. You are definitely someone to look up to!

Jen said...

That bedding is so cute & those are some great ideas for Baby CC's room! I can't wait to see what you and Chris do with the nursery.

~Liz~ said...

You seem so amazing...an amazing woman, amazing wife...amazing MOM. I love sharing your story and pray every single day for your happy ending. Can't wait to see CC!

Jaime said...

Perfect compromise and combination!!

xo

Beth said...

Love it!!! I think it is just perfect!!

MM4ver said...

OMG I love the book Choosing it SEE. I just finished it a week or so ago and will be posting about it on my blog today. It has helped me a lot with my little brothers (21)sudden death.
The nursery looks great!

Nicole said...

I love this. How perfect! So happy for you!

Liz said...

wonderful wonderful idea... the room will be fabulous!

Pam said...

Reading this brought tears to my eyes! Watching you go through this has giving me so much insight into my mother. I know its not the same each journey is unique by its own design. My mother when on and had myself and my sister. She now is a grandmother 6 times over. The strength you have is amazing as is your faith. Your husband and sons are truly blessed to have you for a wife and mother!

Anxious Mommy said...

Great Idea!!! I guess I have been reading your blog for a year now (it doesn't seem like it) but rarely comment. My son just turned one and I had him after a rough fertility struggle and was scared to enjoy and moment because I thought it was too good to be true. So I think I understand a fraction of how you feel because when I look back I was too scared to enjoy it.

I am so happy for you that you are making a point of enjoying every bit of this pregnancy even when it is a struggle. I was so devastated when I read about your brother. You are such an inspiration to have the outlook that you do and I can't wait until we see pics of "chunky butt" in his nursery!

29 weeks!!!! Only 8 left until 37 or is it 36 that your C/S is scheduled? I can't believe how close that is!! Anyway just wanted to let you know how many people are pulling for you, including this quirky mama!!

29 weeks is so fantastic!!!

Pam said...

Awesome, love it!

Holly said...

The nursery will look amazing and still have Nolan tied to it.

I've heard MBC's book is good and I so want to read it!!

Sar(Mrs.Teddy) said...

perfect, absolutely perfect. I love the theme, and my Logan is certainly in love with trains at the moment.

lynn.marie said...

I love it! I think he will love his train room :)

andreawilliams said...

perfect!!!!

The Blue Sparrow said...

I love the nursery pictures! I just finished her book last week and was so inspired by her! I too really liked the ending sentence! And yes you can! Im praying for ya! (((HUGS)))

Mitzi G. said...

The room & theme are udder PERFECTION!!

Jessica said...

Its beautiful...love the theme :)

kristen Greenleaf said...

verycute. where is the anchor and ship wheel from?