I feel like a horrible Mom. I don’t visit Nolan as much as I used to. I get so sad when I see no flowers at his spot. It just looks so dead. I mean the grounds are beautiful and his angel statue is there because of HIM. But it’s still hard to see no flowers at his stone. Nothing. It just looks empty. I miss doing his flowers and arranging new ones every month, it was one thing I looked forward to. I’m adjusting though and ‘starting’ to get used to it, just very slowly.
I also fell in LOVE with a house. The backyard faces the memorial garden and I would do anything to live so close to Nolan. I could blow him a kiss every single night. Now I just need to win the lottery, even if it was just $200,000. I would move RIGHT NOW.