I wish I could say it’s a Happy Easter for us. I know we are celebrating Jesus rising but it’s so hard to put that smile on today when you know your cousin is delivering their baby girl who is just too small. I am still holding hope that she is bigger than they estimated and Josey can have a fighting chance.
One thing that I hope she can do is get a hold of a NILMDTS photographer. It’s something I wish I had a chance to have. But since Nolan left us so unexpectedly and at 2am in the morning, it was never a thought. Since being in those shoes, and becoming an aspiring lifestyle photographer, it’s something that I really want to dip my toes in. Not right away because I am not ready emotionally but when the time comes I want to be that photographer that documents a baby’s life. Just as this photographer did, she lost her baby Eli in 2002 and since then has volunteered to take the most amazing pictures of baby’s as they leave us here on Earth. One day, that will be me.
Sweet baby boy Nolan, I am thinking of you this Easter. I know your up there in Heaven with the star of the show Jesus. I know your in a better place than here on Earth but it doesn’t make me want you here any less. I wish we were dressing you up in a outfit with a little tie and taking you to church. Then off to Grandmas for Easter dinner. It would be the perfect Easter. A year ago I never would have thought we wouldn’t have our baby boy here on Easter. I don’t think some people realize how lucky they really are to wake up with their baby sleeping soundly in their crib on Easter morning. I wish that was us. I mean why would you think about that stuff?
Happy Easter everyone. Say a prayer for Kerry and baby Josey. They already started her induction and I hope today goes smooth and calm for her. It’s just so hard to celebrate Easter when things like this overshadow the celebration. It just shouldn’t be this way.