Friday, April 2, 2010


I did it. Of course with some help of some prescription courage. I stepped back into HP today, I took the very same elevator I took all those months I was pregnant. I even went to the wrong floor on accident where the NICU was. I walked the same hallway I did for months. But you know what made it better? The people that work in that office. Vicki the ultrasound tech remembered me right away and talked to me a bit about Nolan. The girls at the front desk talked to me quite a bit too. They even said they still read my blog all the time, that just melted my heart. And when the pregnant women came in and started the chit chat with each other, they rescued me and got me back in a room so I didn't have to listen to them.

My test results came back normal and my ultrasound showed what is was suppose to. So Dr Fish and I have a plan of action for the next coming months. I’m really hoping it works. I am so sick of running away from pregnant people and feeling left behind, it hurts more than I can explain. We want to give Nolan a little brother or sister so badly.

Dr Fish did think it was very odd that Kerry is going through the SAME exact thing in slow motion. We maybe think that there is something genetic that is an unknown and may not even be a test for. She advised me to call back the MFM I saw back in Sept and inform him of this. He may have a different perspective now. It’s just too ironic. I am also planning on going for a consultation with her best friend who is a perinatologist in Nashville. She already knows a lot of my story and it wouldn’t hurt to get her opinion. I guess Kerry and I would be an interesting case study for some Dr’s to take a look at. You never know.

Kerry is still trucking along, so keep those prayers coming.


Jen J. said...

GL Ash! I hope you guys get the help you need to ensure a happy, healthy & safe pregnancy for Nolan's little bro/sister. Continuing to pray for Kerry.

Lisette said...

I am happy to hear that everything went well at the doctors office and that the staff was so nice. I know that must of made a huge difference. I will keep you in my prayers. It does suck having to avoid pregnant women, I hate the feeling too.
I am also praying for your cousin, you both have been through so much, I am so sorry. I hope that something good comes of the studies the doctors do for both of you. ((HUGS))

belle said...

my heart is breaking for both of you today..... what a precious gift the two of you are giving to other moms and dads by allowing yourselves to help find a potential link. that must be so very bittersweet and hard to do.

glad that some one made your visit today a bit easier.

Tara said...

I'm absolutely amazed by you and Kerry. Both of you are in my thoughts.

The Blue Sparrow said...

Im glad that your day back there went smoothly. That's so cool that they remembered you and Nolan and care enough to follow you through your blog. Sending baby dust and prayers your way! *HUGS*

Saffy said...

It must defy the odds that you've both been sooooo affected by the PE beast. I really feel for both of your families and friends. I won't rant any more today tho.

I am pleased you've been to see the doc, and that extra consult sounds like a fab idea. It's brave stuff looking at getting on the horse again huh? I know you'll have a gazillion PE affected woman to talk with about jumping (or in our case a very slow tip toe) back on that horse, but I'm here if you ever want a different ear.

Thinking of both you and Kerry over this holiday >:D<

Maggie said...

I'm happy to hear everything went well at the doctor's office too. I really hope you can give Nolan a little brother/sister soon! I absolutely hate running away from pregnant women too. It's so frustrating. Thinking of you & Kerry! (((HUGS)))