Thursday, July 29, 2010

Half Way There

I should bust out in Bon Jovi's classic, but I'll spare you my voice.

18 weeks.

Today, I am half way to our delivery date. That's about 132 more days till we meet our new little guy. Will we make it that far? We can hope, right? It's only 130 or so Lovenox shots in the belly, not too bad.

We pretty much live week by week and we have our weekly goals. Everyday is a blessing and every week this little guy grows is a victory.
Our goals
  • 18 weeks- half way
  • 24 weeks- viability. Dr F said we're already ahead of the game if we get this far since this baby will be bigger than our little guy
  • 26 weeks- when Nolan was born
  • 32 weeks- our 'safe' goal we were given last pregnancy with Nolan. I remember Dr F saying "If we can just get you to 32 weeks"
  • 36 weeks- Ultimate goal & c-section (I can't go much past 36 weeks due to type of c-section I had)
It was tonight while watching Boston Med that I got all giddy about the newborn on the show. I said something along the lines of "Awwww I really want one of those" as in like a newborn baby that we get to take home.

Chris looked at me like I was crazy and said "We have one, right there in your belly"

It dawned on me that I still don't feel like this is all real at times. It feels surreal that we may just be rocking a baby in our arms in just a few months. This can really happen, I mean we're already half way there, right?

We just don't know what my body is going to do, no matter how healthy and big this baby can be. We have that little thing called pre-eclampsia & HELLP dangling over our heads and it can appear at anytime and I freaking HATE it!

So.....
Here's to another smooth sailing 18 weeks (raises water bottle)

25 comments:

Maddie said...

It felt completely surreal to me until we were well past 20 weeks as well. Have my fingers crossed things will continue smoothly for the next half.

Maddie x

Lauren said...

Yay! Half way there! You just keep focusing on that end goal of 36 weeks... you'll get there before you know it. Can't wait to meet the little guy!

Jen said...

Congrats on the halfway point!

Here's to another happy and healthy 18 weeks! Go baby boy D!! :)

cmatsukes said...

Yeah 1/2 way there is a good sign and that he is growing WHOOO HOO I am praying for you everyday I have a good feeling he will be in your arms shortly I think I might have to visit you for a peak at him and of course to see you too. Well keep us posted Love Aunt Chris.

Melissa: Mother to 3 Little Sprouts said...

Congrats to the half way point! I have been reading your story since your story began and I am always keeping your baby in my prayers. My daughter was born at 26 weeks last year, and I am so nervous to have another pregnancy. Anyways, I am following your blog from the hop, although I have always been a true follower :) God Bless you!

Melissa

mstilley said...

I found your blog from another blogger. I cannot believe that with everything you have been through you are still fighting! It is amazing! I really enjoy reading your blog and hope you have a very healthy next 18 weeks!

Shelli said...

Here's to T&P's for a healthy next 18 weeks!! Woo Hoo!!!

daisybv2 said...

raising my water to you as well!

Keep your head up girl you can do it :)

Karin said...

Those are great goals! And each week you tick off brings you closer to the next one. I'll raise my water bottle to that!

Alise said...

I just want to say that you never stop to amaze me, at how well you seem to do most of the time! YAY for the 1/2 way mark, I hope the next 1/2 is smooth sailing for you as well!!

x's Alise

Antoinette said...

good luck!! and I now have the Bon Jovi song in my head....good song!! counting down right with you xoxo

Pamila said...

You are in my prayers. I feel creepy saying this but you are in my thoughts often. I was driving down the highway last night on my way to get my darling husband and I prayed for you, your family that you get to take this darling life home with you and experience all the joys of being a parent to a baby here on earth.

Jayme said...

Woo! YOU CAN DO IT :)
I am so excited for you, I hope he keeps growing big, and you keep trucking along all healthy!

ryansmom said...

Congrats on 18 weeks and praying for 36.

urban chaos said...

Girl- I just belted that one out for you last week at the concert.

Singing voice be damned, I say go for it! You and Chris deserve a round of bad karaoke! ;)

Krystle said...

Yay! How exciting.
Talk to me about your lovenox. Do you pinch your skin? How bad are the bruises. I've only ever had a couple of the shots and I remember bruising a good bit. I have to do it daily now too, i'm starting tonight.

Lara + Chris said...

I just realized that you, me, Maggie (Aidan Christopher's mama) all have SOs named Chris. Hmmm. Maybe it's THEIR fault! ;)

Congrats on making it to 18 weeks, and I can't wait to here about you getting to 24 weeks and then 26 and 32 and 36! I have complete faith you'll make it!

Jill said...

I feel the same way, even at 28 weeks, I find it still surreal alot, I still think is there really a baby in there, and yet people say oh I made it, at least you caught it early (my mild pree) but they dont understand, I am not in the clear at all yet by any means, yet I am at the day today where I had Naomi, 28 w 1 d, but I am thankful i am not in the hospital.
You are doing wonderfully Ashley! I know its scary, not knowing. Some have such easy going pregnancies like my sister, it kills me yet I am happy for her. I am stuck on pins and needles whats going to happen next. I am SO happy to hear your little guy is growing well! I cant wiat for more updates on him as time goes on! Prayers that the next half goes smoothly and you make it to 36 weeks! :) xoxo

elena said...

Congratulations on halfway there! Thinking of you and praying for you always. Many hugs.

The Blue Sparrow said...

Congrats Ashley! I will be keeping you and your sweet baby in my prayers that your angel stays "anchored" safe in your belly long after the 32 mark! (((HUGS)))

Lori said...

Raising my glass with you!!!!! HOORAY, HALF-WAY THERE!!!!!

Diana @Hormonal Imbalances said...

Yay!! I know how you feel about it being surreal - it's like you just have a large belly with movement until you have the kid in your arms. :)

Christina said...

Honestly I think the surreal feeling is completely normal while being pregnant. Even feeling our little one move around in my belly it still feels very surreal (although more real when he sticks his behind over my rib cage and its uncomfortable @ 33 weeks). Congrats on getting this far and hope to hear that you're doing well next time I check the blog.

Jessica said...

Here's to 18 healthy and happy weeks!! :)

Bluebird said...

I've run out of things to say :) I just nod my head when I read your posts. I understand completely and am entirely your cheerleader. I'm so proud of you and excited for you. I can't wait for you to meet your little guy. xo.