Monday, January 11, 2010

Date Shy

I love when the 8th of each month comes. It gives us a little day to celebrate Nolan and think about how old he would be.

But then the 11th comes just 3 short days after. Can I just take it off the calender? It would save a lot of bad memories that sneak up when I look at the date.
Has it really been 7 months? We are past the 6 month goal, now what? Before we know it, it's going to be a year. As bad as I wanted time to fly, I am terrified of forgeting memories. They are already faded, so what will happen at a year, 5 years, 20 years. I don't want to forget anything. I just want to forget the raw stabbing feeling that I felt 7 months ago today.

I went to church yesterday in the FREEZING Florida weather and it was all about Jesus Baptism and it just seemed so sweet. I am so proud that Nolan was baptised before he went to Heaven. Now I can't wait until we can bring a baby into church for a Baptism. I have NO plans on another NICU Baptism.

Thanks for all the flower suggestions. I wanted to do white for winter, but I didn't like any of the white flowers at JoAnns. Then I found this yellow butterfly and that inspired me to do a yellow arrangement. Then I saw the pinwheel and I think it brings a little
bit of warmth and sunshine to the chilly Florida temps. So I spent some time talking to Nolan yesterday, as long as the cold weather allowed me. I have no winter jacket so it was a short visit. I told him our hopes, wishes and prayers that we have been asking for. I am hoping that Nolan heard me.... PLEASE.

As far as the kitchen, your votes and Chris' changed mind left our kitchen... red. I still want to change it to blue for fun, so red it will stay, at least for now.

7 comments:

Mitzi G.!! said...

I have tagged you in my blog!!

Holly said...

Love the yellow flowers! They are so vibrant!

cathy said...

You did a beautiful job on the flowers.. beautiful!

cmatsukes said...

The flowers are beautiful. And yes some day years from now the memories will fade it happens it is not the memories but the love you hold in your heart for him. That will be there always. That part of your heart will always belong to him.

Jessica said...

love the yellow flowers. Very sweet.

Mrs.F said...

The flowers are beautiful & I'm glad you're keeping the kitchen red! You have a couple of awards waiting for you on my blog BTW :)

Shannon said...

I love the flowers! Daffodils are such a welcome sight in the late winter and bring hope for a beautiful spring - good choice!