I can't even begin to tell you how I am feeling right now. Your Daddy and I went to go visit you at the memorial garden today and noticed all your flowers are gone, your pinwheel, everything. Tears flooded my face and I couldn't help but think out empty your place looked. I knew in time that we wouldn't be able to decorate your special spot when the garden was more full. But I wasn't ready for this yet, wasn't expecting it and was caught off guard.
Every month I look forward to making your flowers or finding the perfect decoration. It's the only control I have. I can't go to Carters and find the cute outfits or perfect first pair of shoes. I can't buy new stuff to give you. I know you wouldn't care about it all anyways because it's all materialistic things, but it helps me cope. The things I never would have take for granted if you were still here.
I hope that your flowers come back, maybe I just happened to visit on a day that they are getting ready to do ground work. I'm not real sure baby, I just wish I knew because I wasn't prepared to see your spot empty. The whole place looked empty and it just breaks my heart.
I promise to find a way to do something, I'm not real sure what it will be. I know you probably don't care either way, but I do.
I love you munchin, more than a vase of flowers and pinwheel can ever show you.