Friday, June 19, 2009

Never Forgotten

Everything was so perfect for you today. Today we laid you to rest and I know your are in a safe and special spot, they will take extra special care of you. Daddy even buried his first home run baseball with you. The church made sure everything was perfect for you, everything was even in your favorite colors navy and red. The prayers and songs were perfect for you and Father Bob said beautiful words about our family, you touched so many people little guy. Mommy's best friend, Valorie made a video to share your story with everyone and there was not a dry eye in the church. Nolan, so many people came to say good bye to you today, it was amazing how many people cared. Nolan, even Mommy's Doctor that delivered you came to say goodbye to you, she's the first person who ever got to hold you, how special of her to come. You touched so many people with out even knowing it. A lot of Mommy and Daddy's family, friends & coworkers came to show us support today. Your Aunt Molly read a reading and your Great Great Aunt Bev did too. Thank you Nolan for giving me the strength to read the poem in front of everyone, I wasn't sure if I would make it through, but you must have been looking over me so I could finish it.

And Nolan, I knew you were there watching over us when we noticed the rainbow you sent through the glass windows right when the closing song Somewhere over the Rainbow started playing. It was the perfect finish to your service. It was absolutely amazing and made me smile. You were our Ruby Baby, you knew exactly how to say goodbye and tell us your okay.

I love you Nolan, you are a very special little boy. I wish you could still be here with your Mommy and Daddy but we are trying to understand why you had to go to Heaven. Today gave us some closure and it will help your Mommy & Daddy.

You are perfect on every way and I am so proud of your fight you put on this earth. You showed all those specialist that you would fight, when they told me you would never survive, even the day before you were born they told me so. I can't thank you enough for those 3 days you gave us. I love you Nolan and I promise to come visit you all the time.
Your Mommy

This was honestly the hardest day of my life, but Nolan must have gave me the strength to get through it. I hope and pray we never have to be faced with this again. I know he will be the best guardian angel to his Mommy and Daddy and his future little brothers or sisters.

I want to say THANK YOU to all of you that came to support us today and say EXTRA Thank You to all of you that donated to Nolan's Guardian Angel Memorial Fund. We are overwhelmed with all the support. I know and hope we will have enough to add the statue to the garden but we have hopes that we get enough to extend the garden to have a Children's Garden for all the little ones that go to heaven to be angels. Nolan will have angel friends.

I want to say a HUGE thank you to my best friend Valorie. Valorie, I can never tell you how much you mean to me. You were there in a heartbeat when I text you the morning from the hospital. You even held my hand as they prepped me for the OR while Chris was trying to make phone calls to family. You were there in less than 2 minutes when I told you Nolan was coding. You were there with open arms the minute Nolan's heart stopped and were there to hold Chris and I in a time of shock. My Mom is so thankful I had you since she could not be there the morning of my surgery and was 20 minutes away from the hospital the night Nolan left us. I LOVE you and couldn't have asked for a better person to hold our hands through all this. Thanks for taking care of my benefits at work so I didn't have to worry about it. And most of all, THANK YOU for the best memory I can have of my son. That video was so perfect and it even made his Daddy shed some tears. I love you and I thank God for sending you to me. You are like an older sister I never had and I look forward to many many years with you.


Shannon said...

I'm so glad everything was perfect today. I love how Nolan gave a sign that he was there watching. What a special boy. He will not be forgotten.

Sara said...

I'm glad to hear the service was perfect and everything you and Chris wanted for Nolan. The video was a beautiful tribute!!

Christy said...

I'm glad to hear the memorial service was perfect. I love that Nolan sent a rainbow to show he was there looking over you and that he was okay.
That's a touching video.

Ashley said...

What an amazing little boy. I love that he sent you a rainbow at the end of the service. I am glad that everything turned out perfect for you all. The video is amazing. I am crying yet again.

Kimberly said...

How special for little Nolan to send a rainbow down from heaven for you today! You are so strong and amazing Ashley! The video is very amazing tribute. Nolan will forever be in our hearts!

Aiden's Momma said...

I don't know you, but I have been following your blog for over a month now and have said countless prayers for you and your family along the way. I'm so sorry for everything, but the service looked beautiful and this morning I sat and sobbed watching that amazing video. Your son was perfect and will bring you many blessings from above. He started with that rainbow in the sky, what a treat for you to see. I will continue to read your blog and keep your family in my prayers. You and your husband are such strong people.